Someone come and break my heart. No, seriously, I need content.
After months of being on hiatus and lacking the creative drive or motivation to write on my beloved blog, I have come back. And who has helped me? Taylor Swift.
Listening to Taylor Swift's re-released album, Red, even after not being heartbroken in years, I still felt the urge to cry. (However, oddly enough, I had a dream during my multiple hour nap on Saturday and my ex, if you could even call him that, was in it and wanted me back, so maybe there's just something in the air.)
Anyways...
As the whole world knows by now, a 10-minute version of the heartbreak ballad "All Too Well" was released, and can I just say, you are at some sort of disadvantage if you are listening to this song and do not have a heartbreak you can reference to. Despite the story being about a breakup, Taylor paints a picture with lyrics that kind of makes me crave to be there with her. It makes you nostalgic for a past Fall day in a specific year and with a specific person, who may not be anyone to you anymore. Part of the reason why I think I wrote more often in high school is because:
1. The rest of my life was too boring to bear so I had to find some sort of hobby.
2. I was actually filled with heartbreak in many ways.
From my first love and broken heart, to the insecurities, anxieties, and overall stress of just finding my way, everything kind of seemed like the end of the world in high school. It made the feeling of it all 10x stronger, forcing me to release it from within and write it down. In college, I find myself longing to write, but I can't seem to make myself do it. I am in New York City, one of the busiest places on Earth, I am in college and juggling 7 courses, I actually have fun from time to time, and I somehow managed to get a grip. It's strange, it's like, you get happier and learn how to somehow cope/keep up with life and... it starts a sort of writers block, can anyone relate to this?
But even with this being true. I miss the old, writing me. Don't get me wrong, I write little blurbs here and there, and for school I have been forced to do many assignments that challenged me as a writer, but none of it quite feels the same as it was when I was an angsty teenager in high school, scribbling down all of the stuff I could not tell another soul, and even though you could not pay me to revisit that point in my life, I do miss her.
So, this is my Taylor Swift moment, I am revisiting my past... in a way. I want to return to me writing on this blog and writing for the sake of myself, not because of school and not just for when I am in a state of heartbreak, but just, because.
As Taylor said in an interview with Seth Myers promoting the album, "At the time I was really sad... It's really nice to put this album out and not be sad, not be taking breaks in between interviews to cry, it's much better this way." And I think that says a lot. You can still create when you're in a better place. And if you are sad, create something from that sadness, and trust me... you will get past it.
Also, if you don't get the reason for the cover photo, watch this.
